Endlessly, Endlessly {OPEN}

[Seven]

Thought that I was strong
I know the words I need to say
Frozen in my place
I let the moment slip away

Her hands hung limply at her sides as she looked over the ocean. It was big and vast and endless. It kissed the sky eternally like a love song that never ended, but was ever changing all the same. They fought together. And against each other. They stood beside each other as one. It was a beautiful thing that.

Mmmmm... What a romantic she was at heart. Love was a beautiful thing in all its forms. But it could also, so quickly turn ugly. Break a man or a woman. Turn to hate or unhappiness. It had to be respected for the power that it held. Respected and, perhaps feared.

Never meant to lie
But I'm not the girl you think you know
The more that I am with you
The more that I am all alone

You do this far too often - let your thoughts drown in the sea like this. You feel horrid when you do this. Just be happy. I didn't choose you because of this gloomy brooding side of yourself. It's not like you aren't allowed to be the you I Impressed to. After all... I Impressed to you! Noraali ignored her dragoness. Yes, she had Impressed to her. Noraali, though, was always being Noraali. She frowned deeper.

You know what I mean. You are afraid to get close to them. You are afraid to be the leader I chose you to be and now you are just sitting here staring out at the sea imagining a time when you used to love someone. And have many friends. I thought you liked it here? I do.

Noraali sighed. I do... But I do miss the people I used to know. I wonder how Margot is doing or Keema or E'lel... I haven't heard from them in some time. It is not as if I have much time to keep up with them while trying to lead this Weyr and set it up for a brighter future.

The dragoness snorted. Your goals are too far and too high, I think. Certainly, perfection is something to chase, but you are demanding nothing less and never happy with yourself unless you are. And that is my job.

Every moment ticked by. Every moment mattered. And every moment she was here was another moment that she was not doing her job. Every moment... was also a moment she spent alone with her dragon and her thoughts.

I've been screaming on the inside
And I know you feel the pain
Can you hear me?
Can you hear me?

[Lark]

And I've been a fool and I've been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I'm always dragging that horse around

Our love is questioned, such a mournful sound
Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues drawn
But it's always darkest before the dawn

Do you want to do something today?
No.
Do you want to do something any day?
No...but I should go check on Jarali.
...Not this time Minelove.

Alyara looked up at the calm-voiced green, not really seeing her except for knowing that she was there. For a moment she was ready to ask why, to challenge what her green said. The moment was quickly gone though, the desire to fight anything drained in her exhaustion. She couldn't fight Avirith, that was the last one she wanted to fight right now. Sighing, Ara pressed in closer to her covers, her trio of flits surrounding her, chirping softly and with worried voices.

Get up.
No.
Get. Up.

"I said no Avirith. If you're so against me seeing my daughter then I can at least just lay here...I'm tired. Just let me sleep." Sighing, the greenrider pushed her way under the blanket over her body, ignoring the exasperated hiss that came from the green. Avirith knew that if one were to look under that blanket they'd see a small frame, one that was even smaller by the little amount Hers ate. They would see what once was beautiful and strong and lithe only a shadow of itself.

Now!

Glaring over at the dragoness who had stuck her head through the entryway between cave and weyr, Ara just shook her head once and closed her eyes tight. It was Aries, her gold and oldest bonded creature, that shook her awake. The firelizard was hissing, pawing at her with talons that scratched lightly over her blanket-covered skin. Off Aries....I said off! The queen refused though, trilling a high-pitched note to get Stella and Bayi in on what she was doing.

Little by little the trio got Theirs to move, Alyara desperately trying to escape their prodding and noisy chirps. Before they knew it, the greenrider tumbled out of bed, and then she was crawling away toward Avirith with three flits on her heels, dive-bombing her from above. "STOP IT, STOP IT ALL OF YOU!" The only thing that did make them cease was the short warble from her dragoness, and then a few chirps from Aries to the other two. Breath coming in rapid, short breaths, Ara finally just sighed and nodded her head, not even bothering to throw on something more than the small tunic she wore for a night gown.

We are going to the beach. Get on, and hold on.

And I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart
'Cause I like to keep my issues drawn
It's always darkest before the dawn

It seems we are not alone....afternoon Ehtyriath, Noraali.

Avirith landed graceful as usual, her small body folding slightly to lower itself to the ground and let her rider slide off into a little heap against her dragon's forearm. I don't want to talk to anyone...please, just don't make me. Avi, not now. The green refused to do anything though, nudging her rider up and waiting until the firelizards were positioned close by before backing away and going to the surf to signal that she was not leaving any time soon.

The dragon had not known anyone would be here, let alone their WeyrQueen. Queenriders had helped Hers before, and perhaps they could help again though. She certainly needed something to break her out of her foggy darkness. Looking over to Ehtyriath, Avirith keened a soft note for only the gold to hear. Mine...she is not well. As if that were not already obvious though by looking at her rider, or by Avirith herself who was only a hazzy shade of a grey-ed out green that she normally held.

Avirith might be pale, but never this much, and she had not had that dull tinge to her before Kayath and Hers had betweened. No, this was because of the sadness Hers felt, and not even Ara's dragonet would be able to fix it. She needed another woman, one that she could look up to and talk to once more. Only that would make her feel comfortable again.

And I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't
So here's to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
And I'm ready to suffer and I'm ready to hope
It's a shot in the dark aimed right at my throat
'Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Well what the hell I'm gonna let it happen to me, yeah